Friday, January 29, 2010

iPad Porn??

Well, most of you visiting this site must know that a small startup tech company called Apple just announced a major new product call the iPad. I can just imagine hundreds if not thousands of porn site domain names were registered within seconds of the announcement of the name of this product. For the most part each new breakthrough technology is usually harnessed to it's full potential, not by education platforms or hospitals, but by the porn industry. From the invention of the home video camera to the VCR to the world wide web; tech has been the best friend of virtual sex.

Like many of you I can think of a million reasons why i need an iPad (by "need" I mean "want" really-painfully-bad!) There are many justifications for purchasing one of these devices if not just for fun. However, I learned a somewhat hard lesson after getting my first computer. I never knew the problem that internet porn would be for me. I sat in my dorm room and unpacked my new Dell desktop and probably before I had even thrown away the bubble wrap I had searched for something softcore on my high-speed connection. A number of years later I rushed, slightly too fast, into purchasing my first smart-phone and realized much quicker that I would need restrictions. Thankfully, with my iphone I found a way to lock down the device so that my addiction would not ruin my life and devastate those around me once again(click here to see my quitting iPhone porn post).

"We do what we must so that we can do what we want" Forest Whitaker's character in the movie, The Great Debaters, said this to his impressionable son in regards to studying/working hard. I think it relates perfectly to the porn addict. You could also say it this way, "We restrict ourselves so that we can be free." I have found this to be true time and time again as it relates to my addiction to online sex. I must find creative ways to limit and restrict my access to an unmonitored internet connection. Sometimes I can still use a device and feel very free because technology allows me to. Covenant Eyes, XXXChurch, Safe Eyes etc... these programs can be very freeing ways to continue using your PC or Mac without the feeling of restriction. In regard to my iPhone I have been required to give up at times a lot of the functionality of the device because filtering or monitoring technology has not caught up (or been allowed to catch up) with the use of the device. It is for this reason that I must use caution when deciding if/when to purchase a new internet enabled product such as the iPad.

The sinner must remind him/herself of the pain and devastation of enslavement in their past life of habitual sin. More importantly the freed slave must remind themselves of the joy and beauty of their current life in Christ. Paul says this about a life without freedom,
"21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.
" -Romans 7:21-25 NIV
If you're reading this article chances are that you resonate quite well with Paul's struggle. Let us serve our new good master in Jesus. His yoke is easy and his burden is light. Though we may not get to be the earliest adopters of every shiny new product that Steve Jobs has created; we can wait with joy knowing that our treasure is laid up in heaven. And hopefully just around the bend one of our brothers will create a safe way for us to enjoy this new tech. I don't know about you but I'm quitting iPad porn before I have to.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Willfull Entrapment

A New Film called Willful Entrapment is coming out described as:

A visually arresting short film that removes the veil from the the perception of "innocent fun" from pornography and depicts it as the door to psychotic addiction and destruction that it really is.
Lead character, Alan Gerd (Jayson McDonald), has a social media encounter with pornography and soon finds himself haunted by a force that seems to destroy him and the ones he loves. What starts out as a slightly uneasy realization explodes into a desperate struggle between life and death as he fights to save the life of Bernice (Kathy Quayle), and his own sanity. But is he strong enough to win on his own?

Conceptually influenced in part by the history of the life of Ted Bundy - a seemingly normal man who is estimated to have murdered and raped 35 woman in the US with a strong involvement in pornography, writer / director Francois J Driessen paints a visually arresting picture of the surreal world of sexual addiction and its power to destroy the innocent.

"A serious wake-up call to everyone that tolerated the idea of pornography."

HT Samson Society

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Pastors and Porn (Nate Larkin Interview) Podcast # 3

Ministers, pastors, priests etc... are men, and women, just like anybody else. I'm trained as a minister. I personally have an undergraduate degree from the Moody Bible Institute in Bible and Theology. I have never wanted to do anything else with my life but be a pastor. I spent the better part of my part-time and full-time ministry (over a 7 year span) addicted to pornography. Of course I had periods of giving it up but it always came back and worse. Today, the main reason I'm in the marketplace and not in a pastor's study is because I am trying to put some distance between myself and my addiction. I find stories from and about pastors and sexual sin fascinating and heartbreaking. I see myself in every headline of a minister gone bad.

Nate Larkin is one of those stories. You can read about Nate's story on your own. The audio today is from the Covenant Eyes. Nate is a gifted communicator. His video from I am Second is definitely worth the watch.

Download mp3 file here -or- Subscribe to the podcast in Itunes


"Are you still there?"

This is the question many of you have been asking me recently. If you subscribe to this blog you may be surprised that it still exists. Yes it does but I have neglected it a lot recently. I've also had a couple of "minor relapses." These "relapses" I call "minor" because I still have accountability in my life and those who know me know about what's going on with me. Though admittedly no sin especially that of a sexual nature is "minor." Let's be frank, it leads to death. I'm going to recommit myself to ridding my life of even the smallest sexual sin. I've been coasting on past success' recently and has lead to some sloppiness in my pursuit of holiness. Hopefully, rather Lord willing, you will see a lot of activity on your RSS and Podcast feeds here. I'm going to blog through the book Holiness by J.C. Ryle with a small possibility of producing some original content for the podcast feed as well. Thanks for sticking with me and fighting the good fight with me.